Now the first time you kill somebody, that’s the hardest. I don’t give a s**t if you’re f**kin’ Wyatt Earp or Jack the Ripper. Remember that guy in Texas? The guy up in that f**kin’ tower that killed all them people? I’ll bet you green money that first little black dot he took a bead on, that was the bitch of the bunch. First one is tough, no f**kin’ foolin’.
The second one… the second one ain’t no f**kin’ Mardis Gras either, but it’s better than the first one ’cause you still feel the same thing, y’know… except it’s more diluted, y’know it’s… it’s better. I threw up on the first one, you believe that? Then the third one… the third one is easy, you level right off. It’s no problem. Now… s**t… now I do it just to watch their f**kin’ expression change.
James Gandolfini’s monologue in 1993’s “True Romance” is uncomfortable to watch, but powerful. Gandolfini’s hit man Virgil is looking for his coke, and he’s determined to get information from Patricia Arquette (Alabama Whitman). After he beats her to a pulp, he takes a moment to reflect on his career as a killer….