The Outside (Mrs. Patrick)

Mrs. Patrick says

You’re a cruel woman -a hard, insolent woman! I knew what I was doing! What do you know about it? About me? I didn’t go to the Outside. I was left there. I’m only -trying to get along. Everything that can hurt me I want buried -buried deep. Spring is here. This morning I knew it. Spring -coming through the storm -to take me -take me to hurt me. That’s why I couldn’t bear – things that made me know I feel. You haven’t felt for so long you don’t know what it means! But I tell you, Spring is here! And now you’d take that from me – the thing that made me know they would be buried in my heart -those things I can’t live and know I feel. You’re more cruel than the sea! ‘But other things are true beside the things you want to see!’ Outside. Springs will come when I will not know that it is spring. What would there be for me but the Outside? What was there for you? What did you ever find after you lost the thing you wanted?