TOM: Listen . . . If we were in some other time or a land that nobody else was around on . . . like that island from the movie, the Sinatra film – None but the Brave – then everything might be okay, I wouldn”t be so f – paranoid about what the people around me were saying. Or even thinking. Then it could just be you and me, and that”d be so great. Perfect. But . . . I guess I do care what my peers feel about me. Or how they view my choices, and yes, maybe that makes me not very deep or petty or some other word, hell, I dunno! It”s my Achilles flaw or something. I”m . . .TOM stops for a moment, regrouping.No, I need to . . . if I stop now I”m not gonna be able to . . . finish, so I”m . . . (Beat) Helen . . . things are so tricky, life is. I know now I”m not really deserving of you, of all you have to offer me. I can see that now. I want to be better, to do good and better things and to make a proper sort of decision here, but I . . . I can”t I cannot do it. I mean, I could barely drive here today because of . . . my hands were shaking the whole time. They were. Jumping up and down on the wheel there. And these are all people that I know! That I . . . I”m just not gonna be able to do this, on like, a daily basis. (Starts to cry) God . . . look at me! It”s . . . I”m sorry about this and I wish that I was saying what you wanna hear. I do. That would make me really happy, to please another person right now. I mean, a person that I”m feeling this . . . love for. Yeah, love. But sometimes it just isn”t enough to get around the s – that people heave at you . . . I feel like I”m drowning in it -s – -and I don”t think I can . . . I don”t wanna fight it anymore. I am just not strong enough for that, so I”m gonna lie on my back for a while and float. See if I can keep my head above the surface. (Beat) I guess that”s what I needed to say to you. That I”m not brave. I”m not. I know you want me to be . . . always believed that I can be, but I”m a weak and fearful person, Helen, and I”m not gonna get any better. Not any time soon, at least . . .More Monologues from “Fat Pig”RelatedShareTweetPin
TOM stops for a moment, regrouping.No, I need to . . . if I stop now I”m not gonna be able to . . . finish, so I”m . . . (Beat) Helen . . . things are so tricky, life is. I know now I”m not really deserving of you, of all you have to offer me. I can see that now. I want to be better, to do good and better things and to make a proper sort of decision here, but I . . . I can”t I cannot do it. I mean, I could barely drive here today because of . . . my hands were shaking the whole time. They were. Jumping up and down on the wheel there. And these are all people that I know! That I . . . I”m just not gonna be able to do this, on like, a daily basis. (Starts to cry) God . . . look at me! It”s . . . I”m sorry about this and I wish that I was saying what you wanna hear. I do. That would make me really happy, to please another person right now. I mean, a person that I”m feeling this . . . love for. Yeah, love. But sometimes it just isn”t enough to get around the s – that people heave at you . . . I feel like I”m drowning in it -s – -and I don”t think I can . . . I don”t wanna fight it anymore. I am just not strong enough for that, so I”m gonna lie on my back for a while and float. See if I can keep my head above the surface. (Beat) I guess that”s what I needed to say to you. That I”m not brave. I”m not. I know you want me to be . . . always believed that I can be, but I”m a weak and fearful person, Helen, and I”m not gonna get any better. Not any time soon, at least . . .More Monologues from “Fat Pig”RelatedShareTweetPin
No, I need to . . . if I stop now I”m not gonna be able to . . . finish, so I”m . . . (Beat) Helen . . . things are so tricky, life is. I know now I”m not really deserving of you, of all you have to offer me. I can see that now. I want to be better, to do good and better things and to make a proper sort of decision here, but I . . . I can”t I cannot do it. I mean, I could barely drive here today because of . . . my hands were shaking the whole time. They were. Jumping up and down on the wheel there. And these are all people that I know! That I . . . I”m just not gonna be able to do this, on like, a daily basis. (Starts to cry) God . . . look at me! It”s . . . I”m sorry about this and I wish that I was saying what you wanna hear. I do. That would make me really happy, to please another person right now. I mean, a person that I”m feeling this . . . love for. Yeah, love. But sometimes it just isn”t enough to get around the s – that people heave at you . . . I feel like I”m drowning in it -s – -and I don”t think I can . . . I don”t wanna fight it anymore. I am just not strong enough for that, so I”m gonna lie on my back for a while and float. See if I can keep my head above the surface. (Beat) I guess that”s what I needed to say to you. That I”m not brave. I”m not. I know you want me to be . . . always believed that I can be, but I”m a weak and fearful person, Helen, and I”m not gonna get any better. Not any time soon, at least . . .More Monologues from “Fat Pig”RelatedShareTweetPin